♥Liyana Kendrick

2010-12-24T20:17:00.002+08:00

This year's much of an exception,

I'm not out on the Christmas Eve and I feel sooooooo depressed. My friends bubbled to death and left me high and dry. Home alone,drowning myself in self pity. No nicotine intake for about 24 hours plus and just plain miserable and sober. Life is unfair.

2010-12-22T21:35:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wish that no part of me wants to hold back.I wish I could say and express out my inner most truth to anyone without any hesitation or veiling it with any underlying meaning or intention. I wish I could just speak the blunt truth to each and every single one of you and let the outcome be as it is. But, you can't always get what you want in life, despite striving for it countless times. SIGH.

2010-12-21T23:35:00.005+08:00

Smoke up,let loose and party all night!

HAH! If only. I'm so occupied these days what with due dates for assignments drawing so near and suddenly there's so many invites to places and events and I'm literally left with $8 to last me till 1st january.Eh how now brown cow sio.I'm so dry,drier than a nun's pussy. Motherless!

I want to cryyyyyyyyyyyyy!

Money,please fall from the sky.

Sigh.

Why, oh why.

Had an awesome session with Navin and Zul at her crib two nights ago and it's affecting my memory and sleeping patterns. Tsk! But oo me like alot.

(my zombie face right below)

Anyways, I realise I've alot to attend to this week cum weekend, Thursday, my selengerbacin friend Danial's migrating to Australia and there'll be a secondary school gathering in the afternoon, Thursday night, Haqim's gig -EP launch, but I really dunno where and such. I hope I can make it, I've been neglecting him for almost three weeks already, sorry boi_Qimz.

On the 25th, my beloved bestfriend, who lost contacted with me for about two years,and finally we've reconciled, Syazwan, has an acoustic performance at Payar Lebar and daanng,I hope I won't miss it, like seriously. I'll post his vid laterxz.

27th is my leg appointment. :c Have I mentioned I fell again? Think not. But yeah, I fell and it hit the exact same spot and it was hilariously painful. If i could recall, I was actually getting back to Navin cause he was teasing me and all, and yeah...I fell. Bloodyhell. But the surprising part was that I realise Jopie's damn strong. He literally carried me off the wheelchair,to the sick bay bed. Aaaww. So yeah,shortly after, the Ambulance arrived. :)

28th, there'll be a sentosa outing with my lovely MDIS babies. I doubt Navin's joining. :c :c :c (just if,in vain, that you're reading this...please be present canzx cute_macha) There'll be booze and shit but all I really want is to soak in the Sun. My god,it's been aeons since I've hit the beach! And yeah, I don't drink, been sober for more than two years now, :B so maybe imma witness alot of shit amongst my babies. :)

I think that's pretty much it to end my extremely uneventful and sour 2010. :/ I have a really long resolution for my 2011 but maybe I'll post about it some other time but soon,and definitely before the year comes to an end.

OOOO.

Anyways, I actually have truckloads of cute pictures full of memories in my phone but I'm still thinking of a way to put it in my laptop. No USB all how now brown cow. but yeah,there's always photobooth pictues. :B

hahahaha.I painted the boy's humongous,gigantic,wide surface area fingernails. :3

Anyways, Syazwan's video. I've always liked singing with him in class,sec1 and 2, when things were alot simpler then. :/

Alright I hope I've fed you enough updates for now, I've to continue with my Starbucks report now. Looks like no sleep tonight! Oh just in case, if you're really curious, drop me questions at

http://formspring.me/liyanakendrick ♥

Eliza Doolittle - "Fuck You" (Cee-Lo Cover)

2010-12-16T11:12:00.001+08:00

Am in larve with this song. :)

2010-12-14T01:27:00.002+08:00

I don't know, I just love the way you make me feel when you tell me that you miss me like you meant it. That's just one of the most unexplainable reason in words, I'd describe as to why I like you so much. :)

Emiliana Torrini - If You Go Away

2010-12-13T23:01:00.001+08:00

If you go away on this summer's day,
Then you might as well take the sun away
All the birds that flew in the summer sky
When our love was new and our hearts were high
And the day was young and the nights were long
And the moon stood still for the night bird's song
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

But if you stay, I'll make you a day
Like no day has been, or will be again
We'll sail on the sun, we'll ride on the rain
And talk to the trees and worship the wind
But if you go, I'll understand
Leave me just enough love to fill up my hand
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

If you go away, as I know you will
You must tell the world to stop turning
Till you return again, if you ever do,
For what good is love without loving you?
Can I tell you now, as you turn to go
I'll be dying slowly till the next hello
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

But if you stay, I'll make you a night
Like no night has been, or will be again
I'll sail on your smile, I'll ride on your touch
I'll talk to your eyes that I love so much
But if you go, I won't cry
Though the good is gone from the word goodbye
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

If you go away, as I know you must
There is nothing left in this world to trust
Just an empty room, full of empty space
Like the empty look I see on your face
I'd have been the shadow of your shadow
If you might have kept me by your side
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

2010-12-12T14:32:00.004+08:00

Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you, and yet you can never have them…when the moment you can’t feel them under your fingertips you miss them? Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; saying something and wishing you had not, or and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.. Don’t be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart…but if you don’t you might break theirs. Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were afraid of losing what you already had with that person?Your heart decides who it likes and who it doesn’t. You can’t tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own…when you least expect it, or even when you don’t want it to. Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled because we are too afraid to care too much…for fear that the other person does not care as much, or at all. Have you ever loved someone and they had absolutely no idea whatsoever? Or fell for your best-friend in the entire world, and then sat around and watched him/her fall for someone else? Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid…afraid of what we don’t know, afraid of what others will think, afraid about what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie…the thing we fear grows stronger. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don’t be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have, or could have had. No one waits forever..

-Tumblr

2010-12-12T13:27:00.000+08:00

If you look inside a girl, you would see how much she really cries, you would find so many secrets& lots of lies but what you will really see is how hard it is to stay so strong when nothing is right,& everything is wrong.

-Tumblr.

2010-12-11T00:39:00.004+08:00

I know no one will read this now,today.

But I'm at my lowest right now that i feel someone should die.I know it's just selfish of myself but either that person dies or myself. Somebody has to be pulling the trigger.

I'm honestly completely lost and I'm still in a state of numbness,every form of sadness will either be converted to a less than 5 minutes breakdowns or I'll put it all the way back in my head as a defense mechanism.I don't understand myself as to why I deliberately push behind my thoughts of sorrow and disappointment yet at the same time thinking and talking about it out loud like it's not affecting me. I feel so low. And nothing is right, I don't know the right person to be talking to, to turn to cause all I seem to be doing is mentally crossing out names as to whom do i want to disclose this really confusing state of mind i'm having.

I've gone beyond control to the extent that I gave multiple punches, the kind that makes a guy admit that it hurts, to Alif, and I'm sorry. But I felt the calmness as I clutch my fist into a massive punch.

Honestly, i just don't know what and how to feel to this emotion. I can't seem to describe it but it's synonymic to all the negative thought and feelings. Lately I've been drowning myself to pathetic cliche depressing songs, and I know it doesn't help but just the thought of knowing someone has or had gone through such a confusing phase actually made a song about it actually alleviate just the little percentage of my self-esteem.

********

And I just slept through the night drafting whatever I wrote on top cause I was mentally and emotionally drained, and the heartbreak was at its finest. A sleep is a sleep. A heartache is a heartache. But sleeping with a heartache? I miss smiling in my sleep, in my thoughts, on my face.

I know,I'm just an ornament object in your life but I hope it'd make a difference.Thank you for appearing in my life. ♥

2010-11-02T00:15:00.004+08:00

I'm giving up, on everything. At my wits end and those whom i've held so dearly and close, have left. Thank you. I'm beyond disappointment if you ask me, and I've regretted for all my life, ever since the day my father left me, aged eight, I was delusional into thinking that things will be better in the future. Took me this long, to realise that the day he left, was the beginning of a painful journey, know what's sad? I can't do anything about it but just let it kill me inside. Nobody knows. I don't even get to seek refuge to anyone or anywhere. Because why? I'm too good at masking all these bullshit and playing in a false pretense. Why? Cause I'd rather see everyone else's smiles and joy. At times i would crack, and fall, because there's just way too much facade that I'm putting up with. But i'll conceal it sooner than you can recall that I've ever really been upset.

If i had all the money in the world, I'll be selfish and leave all of you. Pick up what's left of me and leave this hell of a life and start anew, somewhere so foreign, that I'll change my name and identity, conceal all of these seventeen years of my life and just think of it as a nightmare. Because that is what it has always been. If only.

2010-10-13T19:18:00.002+08:00

I'm an official living walking zombie.Look at my face la on top.

I studied like crazy, one whole book fit in 10 mega mind maps and only so little from what I studied came out.Didn't sleep the whole night, Goodness, i'm miserable and the cherry on top is my stomach cramps.Left home at 7.05am to get breakfast at macs with Navin. I was so slack laaaa today. Well practically everyone looked like a zombie in class, three we debarred from the paper. Speaking of which, can't say I'm confident, can't say I'm not. Now two more to go. I'll be a zombie, and I'll stay like that until school re-opens,December? kanaPsy. :'( then i can only continue working in January la ballz.

Just now after paper, all proceeded to Zul's crib to chiiiiiiiilllllll. We all watched Grown Ups and i think tonight they're going to have fun and i'll be missing out. Navin and I left at 5-ish cause he has plans, and I've to go home, nbcb. I want to celebrate my overcoming of first paper but nooooooooooooooooooooo.

I'm cranky, having fever soon, cramps kicking in, sleepy, bored, sensitive and just plain miserable la.

Kbyekorang.

2010-10-11T00:27:00.004+08:00

HOMGAUZXH

ini muka belajar kat SMU sampai setengah mampus.

rabaaakxzx

BASIC COUNSELLING IS MIND FUCKING ME AT ITS FINEST. kimice how the fug can i achieve the whole book in ten mindmaps. later on got ethics and social science.

adoi.

matimatimatimatimatimatimati. eh, korang okay? aku tak. how now mak kau?

2010-10-10T02:28:00.002+08:00

tonight is the wrong night for me to be helpless and sleepless.

one text that just broke me but it was a little twisted with love. what the fuck was the message for?

I'm so jaded, i wrote a poem in my head last night. i shouldn't have, but like i said and know, a million words to say.

i dowant to be dowwwwwwwwn. :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

2010-10-10T00:51:00.007+08:00

YOUR LLLLLLAAAAAAAANNNNNNNN.

eh pictures la gambar la pictures la gambar la.

I'm a happy girl cause i deluded myself into thinking that retail therapy will block out the negativity I have inside me for the past few days. Got myself a flanel and skinnyzx from UNIqlo, cute sweater top from F21 and the latest shorts from Cotton On. everything at an awzum price. And i pampered myself to french glitter manicure. So it's naavvyyyy blue with silver linings at the edge.

Earlier in the day, I feast myself at Hanz River with my penang family and mom. After which, I met up with Shafa for another heart to heart talk againzx.

Here below MAY be relevant, or not. :)

2010-10-08T14:22:00.003+08:00

Hello again, not that anyone actually cares to read.

Sometimes I wonder if I actually have keen silent readers here, that'd boost up my ego. -.-

Anyways,what's up and what's new...

my professional cert is coming to an end, next two weeks are my exams. my grandmother's in the hospital, i think she's getting weaker. Sid just gave birth to beautiful Nur Nyla Arshia.This that this that...

Alot of shitzx been happening and yeah, what can I do about it right?

But last night was awwwzzzzzzuuuuummmm. Well,after visiting my grandmother at CGH, Qiqi picked us, Zul and Navin, up with her dad's car and we went all around changi to feast ourselves and cheap nicotines. Thought of slacking at Zai's for some shizz but yeah. Changed plans and we hit ecp, where there were loads of abang yellow car,abang vespa and abang suzuki R. HAAH, we made friends through air fresheners. ^^

We were practically high on pumping out loud music from the car and enjoyed a good dose of shaking and let loose.

Eventually we headed to punggol/sengkang and we all got lost. Yay us.

Nonetheless, i love you babies. :)

2010-09-20T00:42:00.000+08:00

i want to leave this town,this life, this mess.

2010-09-12T02:16:00.002+08:00

InsyaAllah, I'll build a better family with my spouse.

the one i never had.

Aidilfitri never taught me how bitter it can get until my first day of Syawal this year. but thank you, so much for preparing me for the worst.

2010-09-01T01:16:00.001+08:00

i'm a

MAJOR DISAPPOINTMENT.

2010-08-24T02:24:00.002+08:00

History paper is about 12 more hours

and i neeeeeeed redbull. knnccb.

HAVE.TO.STOP.SIDE.TRACKING.OMG

2010-08-22T01:14:00.003+08:00

Is it any wonder.

Baybeatz beetchez~

kanaPsy!

2010-08-21T02:41:00.002+08:00

What would you do, if i tell you that i'm left with just three more months to live?

2010-08-16T00:46:00.005+08:00

thanks, now it's my favourite song on youtube since I haven't got the chance to download it.Please tell me you have it in your mp3. nyeh.

Did closing,tomorrow opening then school. yay life. -.- anyways, i hope it's a beginning of a beautiful relationship with them colleagues and please no politics. :)

2010-08-15T13:42:00.002+08:00

It is not a challenge or a competition. It's just another phase of its cycle. :)

Can't wait for next weeek,Jopie will be back tomorrow and i hope i'm gonna work only on mornings! I'll plan to meet the right side of the class everyday, haha. psycho. But yeah, we all have to chiioonnngggg for exams~ Woooo. mtfk,exams!?

I smell a sleepover coming soonz. :):) whose house this timeee?!

k,the medication i took really worked but my body feels so lethargic now. nyeh. I want to go eat naux. bye.

2010-08-15T03:12:00.003+08:00

So bloody motherfucking worn out, i can die.

Super what the fuck two weeks of my life. Quit my job, rush for a presentation, end of a relationship, presentation day, another rush for another group project,work in the morning, psychology day, clean my room, working at one of the stalls at Geylang bazaar for 11 motherfucking hours, work later till closing, work on monday, then last day of HPET, study week and work to prepare for exams the next week, I'm bloody smelly from all the oil and smoke at Geylang and I'm so cranky and sleepy, and i can't fast thanks to my period and i still haven't get my fucking pay from mother fucking spring and i swear I can just break down time and again because it seems to become a habit of mine nowadays and I just took a picture of myself, with the eyebags and I shall post it here soon. my eyebags are like nbcb. I feel so vulgar and dirty tonight. o.0

Oh and ohmyfuck, how retarded and pathetic can i get, i mentioned something about sleeping pills right? yeah. i've to get the doctors to prescribe me those pills just to sleep at night. fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck. :(

k, fuck off and die for all i care. I'm sleepy bitchez.

2010-08-14T10:26:00.007+08:00

You were a part of me and more than I could ever asked for. I held you dearly for the times that we've had, the moments that we shared, the tears that we shed. You are the type of art one would only take a glance and walk away, but for the lucky girls that gets the chance to scrutinize the fine piece of art, she will see how special you are. You'll never be forgotten and you will always have that portion of my heart that i've left with you. I'm sorry if things were totally uncalled for. But I'm sure you're strong enough to let go of my hugs, kisses and misses. I might just regret this move on that very night...but if it was really a mistake, I will learn and be a better person. All our memories that we've experienced, may not be re-lived but it will be cherished every single day.

I will miss you, I will cry, I will get lonely on some nights, I will be in distraught but I know I have to be strong. Like I know you will.

Maybe we'll meet again but just in case if that was our last meet, I would like you to know that I've always loved you and you shouldn't have had to worry about any male friend at all. I loved you too much to even think about dating anyone else. You had no clue as to how much that I've trusted you, that it cuts me so deep that the trust wasn't honestly reciprocated. Still I loved you anyways.

Farewell love. :'(

2010-08-14T02:31:00.005+08:00

The misleading last day of school. Nyeh, i woke up at 8am when i was supposed to BE at work at 8. took MC right away, for the first time at Sengkang Polyclinic..dang, my appointment card was written "chinese" as a race. CB. my face malay siazx. Was a short trip, and i got my sleeping pills now. ^^ waited for Navin awhile for him to reach sengkang to go to school and the cb thought we were going to be late when we reached 55 minutes earlier. navincheebye. -__-

Everyone took loadsxz of pictures for they thought it's the last day when Amir told informed us for a make up class. I feel awesome. :)

Oke picture time babieszx.

Virtual hug to every single one of you. and last night was haha. :)

2010-08-12T23:52:00.003+08:00

PSYCHOLOGY DAY.♥

I will miss you all after tomorrow. Study like fuck dear classmates, so none of us shall remodule. :)

2010-08-12T00:52:00.003+08:00

The ones who have been keeping me strong even when I'm not when I'm lying on my bed alone.♥

I still cry buckets every night.

2010-08-02T22:33:00.004+08:00

HAI.

I didn't take pictures today in school, well somehow i did when i was in the canteen alone..then the dudes came to accompany me. Alwyn was the only nice one to be smiling at the camera, unlike Jopie or Navin. -_- Boomx was there too......

So I had major flu for having really little sleep these days like only 2 or 3 hours of sleep.Mom gave me a herbal drink sachet to be drank with WARM WATER, instead the smart Navin bought for me plain mineral water bottle, room temperature.then he tore the the sachet and pour it in my whole bottle and shook it hard.IT LOOKED LIKE BLENDED SHIT!
EH THANKS AH.

Class was not really exciting what with my flu.Amir called me Virus. :(

So break time,smoked as usual..then we bought cheese fries somewhere nearby but it's sooooooo expensive. :(

So a few of us stayed back in school to review on our assignments, thank goodness that Harry was there, to help out a bit cause i was really lost in Communication. :D

After bladibladiblablabla...Harry decided to give a lift for Navin and I, Qiqi,bbyMice and boomz was dropped off at Commonwealth.we had tons of laughters in the van that i wish they all could alight at Serangoon with me and Nav. :( My bbymice sucha poor thing, cause Boomz actually took revenge on what happened to his hands and Mice got the same treatment.HAHA, HARRY YOU SHOULD CHANGE YOUR DOORS TO CUSHION ALL AROUND.

So Nav and i smoked again, and talked awhile more before taking the train back home. We saw girl who bought something that smells awesome from Chippy! And now I'm kinda craving for its Fried Mars Bars. o.0 Seriously, chocolate cravings these days and restless emotional feelings. I think menses is comiiinnnggggg. :/

Oke bye love.

assignments ♥

2010-08-02T01:23:00.006+08:00

Wasted my weekeds working,fuckk! Group meeting on Saturday was cancelled on the very last minute, thanksss! Been having,the most of 4 hours of sleep these days. I’ve not like start on any of my perception essay(due 3/07), CP –group assignment..and HPET, Cognitivism presentation!!!

ALL TO BE DONE AND PRESENTED ON PSYCHOLOGY DAY, 10TH AUGUST.

Currently:

chatting with Alwyn,the lazy quiet but naughty boy who's planning to copy & edit people's essay tomorrow. -_-
reading through my notes again regarding perception
felt stupid panicking aqilah to go online to ask about the 5 stages
chowie qiqi babykushxz.
i plan to finish my essay by 4am
if i get tired and sleep, my punishment would be waking up extra early to school to finish it up
see, i even punish myself.if talking to yourself is claimed as brain chatter, what is punishing yourself then?!?!?!
i feel like smoking, really badly.
i've next chill with me, not winston. :(
i miss my classmates, some
idk why i'm putting in bullet form
i think it's easier to be read
i'm neither skyping nor on msn now, surpriseeeee.
NOT. aha. only with bbyqiqi
still thinking of a good introduction to my essay
i'm confused did he mentioned that it was to be in a report form or was it my imagination?
now alwyn said it's up to you,and definitely not a report
BUT IT FELT SO REAL
Ah,i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeedz to smoke now.
Alwyn:
you're too enthusiastic

now i sound like a faggish noob.
idk what else to type

hmmmm, i love you all!

x0x0

2010-07-31T01:26:00.004+08:00

Hi babies,

I'm like going to be so0o0o jammed packed with alot of things starting from today(30/07/10) what with school and work.Woots,money and knowledge! Soo I hope I'll still have time here like i always have for Facebookey. hehxz.

Anyways,a random note to all. I'm using Mercury Messenger now. .... *cricket sounds*

HAHA,oke back. Today's(30/07/10) weather is super cooling that i wore double layered,a long sleeve top and my bershka jacket.As promised yesterday, we wanted to attend school early to try the canteen food and just now was our first ever time.I had chicken chop, and Mice-Fish&Chips. Then we camwhored a little then paint our nails before entering class.hehxz.Too bad the rest were either late or,for some, skipped school!!! :( It wasn't full strength today. And the smoke break was so...bare,consisting of Aqilah and Mice only. :(

CP wasn't that much of fun and joy like History

yesterday.My attention focus was mainly on facebook 70% of the time and the guys at the back keep posing whenever I click photo booth, even when i was sitting right directly infront of the lecturer. -_- But yeah, it was nice having a "class photo." :)

So after school ended,again with the same question.."

so where

are we going?" most of them had plans and one,of course, to go home (we all know who). surprisingly,Boomz left first. o.0 hahahha. :) So..we all boarded the bus, mice and I still confused. And something happened..well something happened earlier actually in class, had some form of revelation towards the end of the class..and only in the bus,sitting, keeping shut and only thoughts growing louder that..it just dawned on me that I've not much time left.

Not much time left for what you may ask? -I won't tell you. :)

Anyways, finally Mice and I decided to hit town,for some window shop therapy to distress and some heart to heart girl talk. Awh,love you Micey.If only Qiqi was with us to join. And whilst walking, suddenly some random number called me. I thought it was some important and serious call..and then...

"LIYANAAAAAA, HAGI HERE! HEHE"

-___- Thanks ah babe,you gave me cold sweats for half a second there. So she reminded me regarding the communication assignment,and we have to do it like pronto cause if not next week will be jammed pack with more. So, i had to pull in a schedule for the group project like, right after i end work!? so 9-5 work, 5-? schoolwork. Great. SO0o0 looking forward to later.

-_-"

Urghh,I've to like turn in now. Those fun people are out celebrating Jopie's upcoming birthday i guess, was it drinking session or clubbing? AW! :( Alright..shall update soon,bye babies!

Much love,

Liy ♥

2010-07-30T02:15:00.005+08:00

HELLO:)

I'm supposed to be like asleep now cause i kept complaining to Aqilah and Navin that my eyes are closing anytime soon yet I'm still here. Both of them are not online nowww! Iyem sho shaadd. :( bbyghurl(mice) da sleep, boy dinosaur fingers(nav) da sleep, bby qiqi cute da sleep, boy mcm butch is drunk(Jops) and boy B.O is asleep too i guess? I don't know. HHAHA

I had another wonderful day.Slept at 5-ish chatting with Qiqi taking a whole hour to end a conversation instead came up about another topic. (you know who i know who) :) &i was awaken by Sid's call saying that there's a last minute interview and it's only for one day. So either grab the opportunity and sacrifice sleep or sleep and continue boring old spring.

I was up and about and my aim was to reach there before 2pm. And of course i did, yet i was still late for school -______-

Nonetheless, the interview went superrb!!! I got accepted immediately and they told me to quit my other job and refer to them asap. :):):)

I was all smiles otw to school,twenty minutes late. Had, as usual, an awesome time in class. I've always loved history more than communication for this round. Idk, it's just the way Amir expresses himself.

So after school,Zul had to leave to her granny's.Wani had to leave..leaving Mice,Aqilah,Navin,Jopie and Bommzx decide to head to Vivo.(: It was really nice seeing them boys in Nichii looking at girls' clothes then we went off for dinner to banquet and then smoked outside to release whatever tensions we had..sharing stories and laughters and pokings. :')

After which,we decided to hang at the sky park to get a view of the on building of univeral studio. We played the truth or dare game and there was only one who chose a dare. WE ARE ALL PUSSIES. Plus the questions weren't that juicy so we decided to go on chatroulette since I was pretty much a noob amongst us. Mice decided t leave soon after, leaving only 5. Boomz was with his game and stuff. psh. So we raped the photo booth leaving our pictures as stained blood. :)

So then everyone got tired and one got hungry.Jops bought jelly beans from candy empire then left only four. So we all decide to just go home..qiqi with her awkward situation with boomz while I was busy being taught to do the dinosaur fingers.HAHA.

Alright,much love.

Liy♥

2010-07-28T23:39:00.007+08:00

I'm like, beat. Extreeemely.

But I'm growing to love my classmates even more. :)

Today's topic, was to reveal each others' dark dark dark secrets. And boy,did we all know too much.from talents to goals to love and sex. Learned about the Johari's Window since it was CP.My groupmates were awesome and cute girls, taking things into literal and the simplest context of understanding.

We enjoyed a whole lot, and i kept disturbing Navin cause he's been eyeing on our Famous Amos that he couldn't smell. awh.

&from tomorrow onwards, here goes all the assignments and preparation for Psychology Day on the ninth lesson. I feel so sexcited!

Those collective group of smokers not consisting of Boomxz are always the bundles of joy for break time. :')

So after school we were abit lost as to where to go,again. -_- And no surprise, Navin chose to leave early. So the rest, Mice,Wani,Aqilah,Thaqifah,Jopie,Alwyn and booomzxz. -_-

Went window shopping and we all helped Jopie find a topi. :) Which eventually I wore it throughout. And Wani,Ifa and Alwyn left so the rest had Macs and it's been agesss...I think. ahahha.Had a good laugh with a nice meal surrounded by awesome people. I wish it would be like this everydayy. :D

Alright, I'm shagged, worn, beat. S.L.E.E.P.Y

I don't know what to wear tomorrow either miceyy!!

2010-07-27T01:55:00.003+08:00

you don't know what dark secrets are lying underneath this.

was far away when you caught my eyes
You’ve brought me back and now you’re making me high,
-rachell

2010-07-26T01:50:00.002+08:00

there's still so much that i've to keep it in, and swallow it. be it from home or outside or you. there's just so much and too much. then i guess i'll aply. apply to what i've been taught.
I don't think i'd ever bother to speak what i feel like saying anymore. the ball's on your court now. so play and win. all the best.

Nobody ever wanted or needed this whole lot of complication. No one..but.. so much hate that i could spit to the ground, to each of your faces, to each of your thoughts. I'll keep it in. It's fine. I learned it's a psychological thing. but please, i've spared a thought to try and give a hint to what i want to say, yet again i'm shunned upon.
So fine. Don't go be thinking it's a drastic move once my subconscious mind unveils itself.

I'll twist my words for you. So as to please you. So as for you to be happy.

Don't worry, I've been taught since primary school..." other's before self "

2010-07-24T18:22:00.006+08:00

*WIPES MAJOR SPIDER WEB*

HELLO MOTHER NATURE OF THE BEAUTIFUL WORLD WEB. :)

I've been missing for almost, what..forever? &now i'm back for a sole reason. I've finally enrolled myself to a school,and my dream course. Although it's not some poly,I am contented.

Swear,i'm all perks listening to My Love -Justin Timberlake on youtube on repeat. :)

By the way, I can officially say I am in Management Development Institute of Singapore, enrolling in Diploma in Psychology. :)

(realized how many smiley emoticons? (: )

I've the most wonderful, yet to get to know, classmates whom I never thought people who would be interested in such course. Very unexpected, nonetheless...they're awesome people.

Monday was orientation + first lesson, and I was so nervous i sent a wrong text to A'an, my brother west-side instead of Suqi. -OH,by the way...in case it wasn't known, I'll elaborate about me and the boy soon or perhaps in my next post.

Anyways, let's side track awhile, do you want to hate me? Sure. I'll understand why,

CAUSE SCHOOL'S LIKE 3.30-6.30PM EVERYDAY YOU STINKING KITTIES!

Heh,wonder why am i so hyped. Thank god for the 1/4 of my classmates who smokes are "gerek" minus one. Mice should know well. Btw Mice is my newly made friend/classmate..really cute little girl. So glad your pet name suits you.

Our lecturers are fantastic too. Never entered a class with literally all the students having all eyes and ears to our teacher/lecturer until i meet this class. The topics are really in depth and no way close like your average math and science, and I've never been this keen to go to school,EVER.

Like yesterday,I was a tad upset that it was a friday and we had to skip two days till our next lesson.But I got over it since I found a classmate who lives somewhere near my estate so at least I've a buddy home. :D

On the third day of school,which was a thursday (since on our supposed second day:tuesday was "self study") Mice and I were super hungry and were clueless as to where to head to. Smoked with the rest of our classmates and Zul had to do a research on one of the pioneers of psychology, Hermann Ebbinghaus and that he discovered "spacing effect". Mice and I just invited whoever that was free to joined us for dinner. So there was,of course myself and Mice, Jopie, Zul, Meow and Amreet. I find these people have LOVELY CUTE NAMES, and I'm stucked with Liy/Liyana. -____-

So we all headed to Bugis for dinner at Tong Seng, after which Amreet and Meow decided to shop so the remaining volunteered Zul to the National Library for the research knowing that she needs all the help she could. It was an interesting bond, during dinner. Exchanging storied of introduction. Aw.. :')

Anyways, side track again...

I Love Mice too k? ♥:D HAHA . Not Jopie and Zul only.

Life has officially settled on the right path,I guess. What's new? I cropped my hair and dyed it in aubergine just days before school started. :) ♥

The boy and I are doing fine I guess. I don't know. I hope. :)

Now I'll try to update again soon and more often kay. No such thing as homework,it's all about the mind now baby. :)

2010-05-04T01:15:00.001+08:00

Every time I'm ready to leave,

Always seem to be

Pulling in the wrong direction.

Diving in with no protection.

Man,you can't keep steering me wrong.

2010-05-02T02:10:00.000+08:00

[02:01:25] Aff AA says:

okay la, boboi poly

[02:01:55] Liyana Kendrick. says:

mana jumpa?

[02:01:57] Liyana Kendrick. says:

TAGGED?

[02:01:59] Liyana Kendrick. says:

[02:02:10] Aff AA says:

cbbbbb!!!!!

[02:02:16] Liyana Kendrick. says:

[02:02:21] Aff AA says:

i dont know, longgggg tayo fewnds

[02:06:10] Liyana Kendrick. says:

aiyoyo thambi

[02:07:54] Aff AA says:

k, i eply

[02:08:06] Liyana Kendrick. says:

hahah

[02:08:27] Aff AA says:

wuu bowiinq ahyq?

[02:08:49] Liyana Kendrick. says:

yerp yerp

[02:09:20] Aff AA says:

hahaha

[02:09:25] Liyana Kendrick. says:

but ai werkinq tumowow musst wakeyh wakeyh @ 8.30

[02:09:38] Aff AA says:

hahahh, sho early?

[02:09:50] Aff AA says:

mamasan kol euu ah jush now?

[02:10:15] Liyana Kendrick. says:

k lost. MAMASAN SAPA SIOO

[02:10:28] Aff AA says:

mak ayam la!!!!!!

[02:10:33] Aff AA says:

aiyoyo!

[02:10:35] Liyana Kendrick. says:

hahhaah.

[02:10:42] Liyana Kendrick. says:

sorry la yang tak innocent like me

[02:10:44] Liyana Kendrick. says:

haixz

[02:11:02] Aff AA says:

hahahahha

Haiz,if I was a man..she'll be my pretty lady.

Love you Aff.

2010-04-30T01:33:00.001+08:00

2010-04-29T17:41:00.002+08:00

i'm too comfy with this life. i'm not complaining, i am contented. i appreciate the boy's presence/existence in my life. yeah it's undeniably wonderful to have someone to care for you more than you'd care for yourself at times.one who would call,text,skype or even meet you as randomly and much as he can.Yeah it sure feels great, and no money in the world would compensate to return his love.

But.

Why do i feel that something of the past is missing?SO i came up with several possibilities and reason. And i've come to a conclusion, the least i can do to make myself even more content,is maybe having my lips pierced again. or maybe something else this time.

I miss the pain. Yeah,i miss it as much as i love everyone right now.

So don't fucking stop me fags, bye! :)

2010-04-26T16:22:00.001+08:00

Nobody remembers how heartless i can be, it's almost like how low can you go?

2010-04-25T04:09:00.002+08:00

♥

[4/25/10 AM 04:00:08] Suqiman:

otp then sleep

[4/25/10 AM 04:00:31] Suqiman:

you look prettier

[4/25/10 AM 04:00:41] Suqiman:

you put susuk eh?

[4/25/10 AM 04:00:41] Suqiman:

hehe

[4/25/10 AM 04:00:48] Liyana:

fug you nigga

[4/25/10 AM 04:00:58] Suqiman:

ouhgay

[4/25/10 AM 04:06:10] Liyana:

haha, suara chipmunk

never thought i'd fall for a gamer.

2010-04-22T22:26:00.002+08:00

Fuck everything, period.

2010-04-17T01:00:00.003+08:00

I love you, so much. I hope you're doing well my dear.

You'll always be in my prayers.

♥

2010-04-12T14:44:00.001+08:00

Suqiman says:
cute
he type damn slow sia
mls nk lyn org tua
he call me suzuki
not funny siak
Liyana Kendrick. says:
HAHA
Suqiman says:
Sueh sueh
ni lante lante
Liyana Kendrick. says:
hey suzuki ma man
your nama bahan
hahaha
Suqiman says:
not funny
shut up liyana
Liyana Kendrick. says:
suzuki. suqi suqi.
Suqiman says:
ermm
ermm
piyana
Liyana Kendrick. says:
sushi
suki san
Suqiman says:
piyana centrick
Liyana Kendrick. says:
HAHA
0.2/10
your comeback is really sad

He'll kill me by the time he reads this, oh wells.

2010-04-08T23:27:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHA,this really cracked me up.

2010-04-08T21:55:00.006+08:00

HI,

Cut my hair...again.I miss ranting long posts about my emotions.Nowadays,it seems like I'm way too cold.

Went back to Yuhua just now to collect my cert and testimonial with Farhan....the dude who needs a haircut.Anyways,as much as I miss school, I'm not very fond of the students there..now. :) Except some of the lovely sec fives. Did some catching up and words of assurance with my girls plus a laugh or two.I think I should come by the west side more often these days, having almost a week off next week. And uh, an extravagant dinner for two for my girl to plan when I'm free.1 decade bro!

K,peekcheers.-_____-

Okay,so part of my testimonial goes like this....

"Her confidence was portrayed on the many occasions where she represented the class to speak before crowds.Indeed,she has lived up to the high expectations and demands of her role by being an excellent model for her peers.

Refreshingly unpretentious and candid in speech, Liyana is popular amongst her friends. She values relationships and is fiercely loyal to the people who are close to her"

WTF right? I was choking with laughter about how my form teacher describes me after all these years. Popular amongst her friends? You've got to be kidding bro!

I'm still amused.

2010-04-06T11:51:00.001+08:00

It's ironic,I'm always so keen to dig up about your past, then i get so mad about it.

Is it a girl thing?

test drive on my mac

2010-04-04T01:48:00.003+08:00

♥ you know how it goes. :)

2010-03-23T19:24:00.002+08:00

(F)Erykah says: (7:20:28 PM)

dude i've been *case censored*
(F)Erykah says: (7:20:29 PM)
HAHAH
Liyana Kendrick. says: (7:20:49 PM)
nopee..
Liyana Kendrick. says: (7:20:57 PM)
i post at fb!!!
(F)Erykah says: (7:21:07 PM)
WTF DONT YOU MOTHA FUCKER!
Liyana Kendrick. says: (7:21:13 PM)
ahahhahahahaha
Liyana Kendrick. says: (7:21:35 PM)
tell me you love me and that i'm way cooler than you!
(F)Erykah says: (7:22:10 PM)
I LOVE LIYANA KENDRICK TO THE BITS AND YOU ARE FRIGGIN' COOLER THAN MEEEEEE!
Liyana Kendrick. says: (7:22:18 PM)
TAU TAKOT
Liyana Kendrick. says: (7:22:21 PM)
ahahahahhahaha'
(F)Erykah says: (7:22:26 PM)
HAHAHA CCB!

I think this is why I have lovely friends like her. :') alright,sweet short tuesday,I just enjoyed the 2 for 1 pizza...tonight will be spent at Yishun with Sid and others.Tomorrow's another off day,so perhaps facial at Toa Payoh. :)

Byeee ♥

2010-03-21T17:39:00.002+08:00

Alright fine, hello. :)
It's been almost a month that I've moved and nobody seems to have heard alot from me, i'm rarely online and yadayada. How are things you ask? I don't want to sound as if i'm bragging but i'm pretty much contented with what things that have happened eversince i've moved here.
Everything, i guess began on a good note.
I've never been happier spending my time with the infamous Sushiman..been places to where we have not thought of going.Been meeting the boy almost everyday, and it's odd cause I'm not that clingy type. hmm? :)

What's new you ask?

Mom just got married. ...
She bought a car.
I have an English white framed queen sized bed.
A room to myself of course.
I got a Macbook of my own! :):):):):):)
Went to JB for a short movie & cheap food getaway with the boy and his friends
Spent money on dead sea salt body scrub.
Finally got my Versace Bright Crystal perfume I've been wanting since ever. :):):):):):)
I got the above mentioned perfume with my own hard earned cash. *pats own back* :')
Bought the boy Davidoff perfume. :)
Plans to Bangkok this coming weekend is canceled thanks to the Thaksin riot. :(
So instead, I'm going for the L'Oreal sale at Expo. :)
Lost my DBS iBanking thingy.
Prior to 13: means I can't shop online.
Will have to take note of it to apply another one.
Getting myself and the boy a bag.

I forgot what I was about to type, :/
so uhm..to all those who came last Friday thankyou so much. &my plan to take a picture with every single one of you failed cause just as when the ceremony was about to start, I realised that I didn't charge the camera battery. :/

Farewell Clementi.

2010-02-22T20:29:00.006+08:00

So uhm....I just finished bidding goodbye to the mats&minahs who're always hanging around my void deck..those uncles and aunties playing old chinese instruments at the citizens' corner..
There's so much goodbyes, so little time.
As much as I'm hesitating to move,all my stuffs are packed and I'm just about ready to leave.30% excited about the idea of moving and accepting something new.New hair,new house,new school,new work,new *ehem*guy*ehem*....NOT. ;New life. :)
Come on,bring it on..I'm up for the challenges ahead.Bracing for the worst and best at the same time.
I'm planning to paint my room navy blue,and get everything else in white...but my chandelier will be in black.Idk,still contemplating.I want my own laptop.I might be getting that yellow turtle neck from Uniqlo.I want to get either navy blue or grey Toms shoe.I want to go green as much as possible.I'm reconsidering the jeans from pull&bear.
I should get myself a brown bag,preferably leather.But that just defeats the purpose of going green.I want to watch more movies with Sushiman, and I still have yet to choose an activity for a perfect day out with him.I feel like throwing away this stupid macbook cause it's super not user-friendly.Lastly,I'm planning to change my hair color to blue-black.
Seriously,what is up with me and blue??

Sidetrack...
Hrmmmm.He seems to be realllyyyy busy with work,and hasn't been replying me since 6.18pm.Busy benar awak. :(
Oh btw,I don't fully agree that retail therapy is the best remedy. :)

Alright,I really have nothing else to talk about now.
Just that I've been reading my novels for the third and/or fourth time now..so I guess I should get new books too, :)
I'll miss being a west-sider.Still,I am one at heart.From tomorrow onwards,I'll be a Northeast-er.

2010-02-17T13:27:00.000+08:00

Naf,do you remember the good old times? :)

2010-02-17T12:45:00.005+08:00

Yaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy,it's finalised!!!!!!!!!!

Bangkok in March,

Bali in April.

I still haven't choose a friend to come along with to Bangkok.How lei??
Anyone? :)

Contented (;

2010-02-16T00:24:00.004+08:00

Awzum awzum awzum awzum time with Titsy(Iaene),Cow(Rafiq) and Chen Hui(no pet name).Finally, I got to catch things up with at least some of my schoolmates.It felt like ages.
Started everything at Starbucks,and titsy was late...I think I never stopped laughing even until we parted in the train.I missed laughing this hard with those farm animals.
There's only one who was missing,that's Naffy..we could've recorded a short singing session if her (as quoted) Nipple guy cousin didn't came to visit. :(
Oh,Iaene is finally attached. *wipes tears* They grow up so fast... :')
It's weird,practically 90% of the shops in Jurong point were closed except for a few. I was dying to shop..but geee. So the animals and I just surveyed through random shops and stuff.I didn't know how much I could miss Cow's ears...those soft,flexible and big ears.
We ended up at an arcade, and who knew that I could be the champion of Speed hockey. ^^
*dalam diam diam...*
I realllyyyy miss Naf,Rafiq and Iaene. It's sorta random,but yeah.
After beating those three little boys 7-1...we just continued walking around randomly at courts to get a cartridge which I kept mixing it up with cartilage. I know I'm such a disgrace to all the Biology students.
Bumped into BM! with super tight berms,it really puzzles me why.Haixz Boon Meng...
So everyone got restless and i thought that was it for the day for me...but no.
Rafiq had to forget his gaymen magazine in my bag.Another 3 minutes of hardcore laughter alone in the train to wait for him to comprehend what he was trying to say. I'm sorry Cow. :B
That's it for my night. &He was being temperament towards me, so I just had to chant to myself... "a hungry man,is an angry man" -____________________-

2010-02-13T00:44:00.005+08:00

Yay,online again. Like,whoa.
Very short update. Since he's sooooooo busy these days working,I even took to the extend of taking two jobs tomorrow. 11am-5pm at STC then 5.30pm-11pm at York hotel. Awzum.Since he's busy struggling with his license,I learn to save up a year ealier,to enrol on my license next year asap gaanngg.We'll be celebrating belated valentines on Thursday visiting Mustaffa Centre. :)
Pay has arrived.Should I shop, or refrain? Hmm..willpower.

Yes,this is how my life has turned out to be,working and/or meeting him if we both happen to be free on the same time.While the rest of my friends are awesomely studying their brains out,cracking every single equation and theories,some are at home waiting for the next day to wait for the next. Get me?
Ohwells,I'm moving to Sengkang on this 22nd. :( Farewell good olé Clementi.

Monday, Ubin with his friends,or not?

2010-02-05T22:57:00.007+08:00

CNY songs are ah-no-yink.
Maybe it's me but I really find that everybody is breathing on my neck.
Bad enough that I don't get to go online as much as I used to, now that when I am, people will start prying me with questions of all sorts.

Note to all guests/passerby(s)/random nosy people : I won't be starting school anytime soon.It is of my choice,and both my parents are aware of it.I'm going to work for a short while,approximately four to five months.I need to save up.School is confirmed.Just don't bother asking me what and when.

Life is not awesome.I'll be moving to Sengkang in two weeks' time.I'll never accept anyone new in the family deep down inside.The irony is that I don't even think about my friends these days,and I honestly feel guilty.I don't think there's room,for the time being, for me to be a kid and enjoy.
On another note,I might just be travelling around mid year either with cousins or friends or mom.Will see,that's the only highlight of the year for me.
If by chance, that you are concern of my doings..or whatever,
here's my email, favourite_mistakes@hotmail.com. &for those who can,do text or call me.
You can enquire whatever it is that you're so keen to know, personally.

There's nothing to be worried about, my Sushiman is still my pillar of strength..plus some other close friends like Nisa and Erykah. Oh btw,Erykah got lucky and asked me out on my off day.So we hung for just a bit, relived old gossips and shared the same old tales.

See I'm doing fine and alive.So yeah,quit the yapping.

2010-01-27T22:50:00.002+08:00

I hate 10.5hours working shift of standing in an air-conditioned store with customers only browsing through. I just hate air conditioners actually. For now. I'm applying a second PT job after completing my resume that I've been procrastinating since November. I like to talk about work.I like sales,especially when we hit target. I'm thirsty these days, very very thirsty. I hate red monthsaries.

2010-01-27T01:32:00.001+08:00

Bold the things that apply to you.

My shortest relationship was a month.

I’ve had a few short-term boyfriends.

I’ve been given flowers.

I’ve been given chocolate.

I’ve been given shoes/clothes.

I’ve been given jewelry.

I’ve been kissed in the rain.

I’ve been kissed under the stars.

I’ve been kissed on a roller coaster.

I’ve been kissed in a pool.

I’ve been kissed underwater.

I’ve been kissed while I was driving.

I’ve been kissed while I was asleep.

I’ve been kissed in a bus.

I’ve been kissed while laying in the grass.

I’ve been on a date.

I’ve been on a group date.

I’ve taken a nap with a guy.

I’ve made out in a closet.

I’ve made out with just a friend.

I’ve made out with a member of the same sex.

I’ve played some sort of kissing game.

I’ve been asked out in person.

I’ve been asked out online.

I’ve been asked out over the phone.

I’ve been asked out on Valentine’s Day.

A guy has cooked for me.

A guy has written me a poem.

A guy has sang for me.

A guy has played guitar for me.

A guy has carried me.

A guy has given me a piggy back ride.

I’ve cuddled with a guy whom I wasn’t dating.

I’ve been kissed on the lips.

I’ve been kissed on the neck.

I’ve been kissed on the stomach.

I’ve been kissed on the nose.

I’ve been kissed on the top of the head.

I’ve been kissed on the hand.

I’ve been kissed on the feet.

I’ve received a hickey.

I’ve given a hickey.

I’ve been in love.

I’ve been in lust.

I’ve confessed to a crush.

A crush has confessed to me.

I’ve been in a love triangle.

I’ve been on a date to the movies.

I’ve been on a date to a restaurant.

I’ve been on a date to an arcade.

I’ve had a crush on a member of the same sex before.

I’ve been felt up in public.

I’ve been cheated on.

I’ve had feelings for somebody else when I was already taken.

A friend has dated my ex.

I’m still friends with my ex(s).

I celebrate anniversaries.

I celebrate monthsaries.

I’ve never been given a promise ring.

A guy has promised me forever.

If I have a boyfriend, I give him nicknames.

I used to fall for my best friend.

A guy has given me a foot massage.

A guy has rubbed my shoulders.

I like holding hands in public.

A guy has tried to take me away from my boyfriend.

I’ve cooked/baked for a guy.

I’ve stayed up late talking to a guy I had feelings for.

I haven’t had a sleepover with the opposite sex.

I’ve led a guy on.

I’ve knowingly teased a guy.

I’ve been in the same class as a boyfriend.

I’ve never been in a long distance relationship.

2010-01-26T01:16:00.000+08:00

and now there's you understanding why I do the things I do
knowing that you do them too makes me really happy

These days.....

2010-01-26T00:35:00.003+08:00

It's either I'm home, or work, or on someone's laptop with no wireless internet,
watching downloaded movies because all Singaporeans secretly wish that everything
is free and at the same time,each individual having
at least a thousand pounds in their savings account.

Yeah. Oh, just in case if you're wondering.

The lower layer of my hair is still golden/brown-ish.
The upper -used to be blonde+ash+pink part is currently medium mahogany with violet effects with a slight touch of a streak of violet-ish blonde.
I don't know how to explain. :/

I'm so sleepy.
&I'm sorry Naf that I blew you out last week,I thought I'd had a day to just chillax with you.Anyways, I doubt you'd be reading this anyways. Insya'Allah this coming week...or perhaps next month, Sorry dear. :(

2010-01-23T00:30:00.004+08:00

Aku manusia lemah
Selalu terjatuh
Berbeda aku darimu
Kau berdiri teguh
Aku serba tiada
Aku kekurangan
Dan bila kau tiba aku hilang dari kewujudan

Sempurnanya sifatmu
Tulusnya hatimu
Jujurnya niatmu
Tingginya kesbaranmu
Lepaskanlah diriku
Kerna aku tak mampu tuk
menanggung sebuah cinta sempurna

Bukan aku tak pernah
Mengerti dirmu
ku sanjung setiap kata cinta kau berikan aku
Hilangkan rasa itu
Akhirkankan semua
Dan bila kau sedar
Aku hilang dari kewujudan

Goodbye blonde hair. :):):):):)
& John Legend+Coldplay=S.E.X

2010-01-19T12:05:00.002+08:00

I really can't wait to change my hair color.
Or/and watch Avatar on somebody's laptop.
Plus pay day.
I think twentyten began on the wrong note in every way.
I plan to change it.
Hello, how about a two seater bicycle ride? :)

♥

2010-01-16T23:59:00.003+08:00

Honestly I don't know what is going on in my head. I seek refuge to myself by working and thinking about work as much as possible and block out all those heartfelt emotions i've had and having to escape from the reality.I can't run that long,I know.
I'm so mentally and emotionally drained,I can't make my mood on a higher hue. I don't know how to help myself either.

I want to rewind to primary five, or fast forward to 23.
I apologise for all that I've done to anyone and myself.

2010-01-14T23:07:00.001+08:00

2010-01-13T00:21:00.007+08:00

Yesterday was something,today was something else.
Alot of shits been reoccuring, yet I'm still living.
I finally get to hang out with my loved ones but only in a short period.

Monday was my results.
-It was _ _ _ _ _ _ _ :)

Tuesday was my hair show.
-Pictures shall be uploaded as soon as it arrives.
-the DJ had a nice hair.
-apparently my current hair color is blonde+pink+ash purple+ orange.
-heels killls
-Donald(stylist) invited me to the after party at Butterfactory with all the hair dressers and models.

Unfortunately....

Wednesday (later)
-full shift at VVC. :(

Thursday
-Off day.
-Nisa is coming over
-doing our application of JAE

Friday
-closing at STC

Saturday
-full shift at VVC

Sunday
-is a mystery.

i ♥ sleep. Clearly,I'm deprived of it.

17

2010-01-07T01:11:00.007+08:00

If you're wondering, my birthday wasn't much of a blast.
Spent almost the whole day working and not at home. None of my family members got to wish me until I reached home at 11ish which also means my day was minutes away till coming to an end.
I'm going through some tough love emotional wreck with everything and I get super sensitive even by a mere sentence of "oh you're gonna eat again?" -it will tick me off so badly, I can swear the living hell of your mother.
You get the picture?

Apparently,I was "surprised" with a mini pandan-cream cake with spongebob and tweety bird on it. -Courtesy of beloved Granny who chose it. And they actually bought the cake like before I even started work,since yesternight was spend counting down my sour seventeen at yishun,getting myself individual home-made pizzas by Sid,Kak Ain and Malek's.

Good things really do come to an end.
I feel like everyone left me at 2009,struggling to keep up.
Hi,I'm seventeen now. In another decade,I'll be my favourite number age.
With love.

2010-01-05T14:58:00.007+08:00

Goodbye 2009,Ohyah, hello 2010.
So as you all know about my hair.
Here's the outlook. and no,it's not entirely done yet.
And yes, I feel that I have that androgynous look now.
Oh God,give me mercy,

It's not done yet!
Anyways,
♥ you,Suqiman. :)
There,I said it.

omg,HAIR.

2009-12-29T11:43:00.007+08:00

As you all might've known,
I've been looking like this for almost the entire year...
and I don't know how this opportunity came along...that I made myself to a hair salon all the way to Kovan for a very very very very very very very drastic haircut. If you wonder if I regret making the move,somehow I did after looking back at my pictures.But ohwells,hair WILL grow. :)

This was my stylist's first move,

OH
MY
GOD,

the agony and misery and pain and very little tears shed....

"nooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

yes,this whole tail is GONEEEE,
well,not really.I kept it inside my bag
just to keep a memory of it.
*wipes tears*

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Alright,I won't show you the end product.
K thanks,BYE!

P/s:
Come to my hair show and see it for yourself. More details at www.hairlah.com
And I'm serious about the link.It is the biggest and first hair event in Singapore,I'm wondering why they chose the name to be "Hair lah!"
I'm screwed,I've to strut in a four inch heels! :(

K,bye.
♥

:)

2009-12-24T13:59:00.007+08:00

Told him that we weren't able to meet yesterday and obviously,he was disappointed.
I was too,cause cousin bought movie tickets for me,last minute.
And let me tel you,Avatar was AWESOME.Initially I thought it was just another sci-fi movie, -I hate Sci-Fi.Seems like it proved me wrong,what with the plot and everything.

So uh,initially...plan was to meet the boy after his bike prac.And i don't know how it hatched into my brain to just surprise him infront of BBDC as soon as he finished his test,since we couldn't hang the whole night,so why not just pay him a short visit. Man,I should've snapped a picture of him spotting me from afar. haha,that was the first successful surprise. :D
Then I thought of giving him a second surprise,but I doubt it'll work..so I just told him the good news that after my movie I'd be spending the night at Yishun. And all were thrilled. :)
He picked me up then a late dinner.
The end. :)
....
Wait,not the end.
He surprised me with a toblerone. (!!!!!!!!!!)
:) I slept in peace.
The, The End.♥

2009-12-22T21:33:00.003+08:00

I hope he has downloaded the movie(s) I told him about in his laptop cause I reaalllyy want to watch it tomorrow.Yay,meeting the boy.
I feeling feeling like going to the Library. o.0 Been staying at home for the whole two days glued to the computer and the nausea is annoying me.
I've been occupying myself with short Malaysian sitcoms at youtube &I'm craving for Toblerone. :(
Oke,watch this. :)

AHA.:D
Alright,until next time.♥

2009-12-22T00:18:00.001+08:00

2009-12-21T17:03:00.008+08:00

Words can't describe my contentment these days,
although there are the down parts of getting a job -to get $$.
Nonetheless, I'm carefree. :)

Well...why shouldn't I be?
-Guitarist from Closure in Moscow just gave me the sweetest smile last night.
Ohyeah,I'm lucky alright.
Didn't get to snap a picture with the boy yesterday,
so.......
Oh he's gonna hate me for sure now. :)
♥

2009-12-19T14:24:00.004+08:00

I have alot of things to rant about you...
but I guess it's not the perfect time just yet.
Uhm,...see you later.

♥

2009-12-18T17:05:00.002+08:00

Hello.(:

2009-12-13T03:12:00.000+08:00

Men,the entire bloody species, prefers to play the
innocent bystander entrapped by the femme fatale.

!TGIF

2009-12-12T17:02:00.004+08:00

Yesternight; sheesha&movie.
♥

2009-12-08T16:25:00.005+08:00

I just realised I got my life back.
I just lightened my hair color.
I just worked for three days straight without going back home.
I just want money.
I ♥ all of you.I hope tonight's slumber party is on.Tsk.
I hope I can wake up tomorrow -work @ Lavender.
I hope Friday will turn out well, with or without a date. :)
I hope nothing more important comes up than a date with hotstuff on Saturday.

2009-12-06T18:00:00.002+08:00

I just figured out something fucked up about a particular old close friend,
well...gee,you sneaky sneaky little bitch.
Good to know who you truly, really are as a person now.Quit hiding.
I just got the last piece for the puzzle,and it fits perfect.
You're one hell of an awesome hypocrite.

Cheers girl! :)

2009-12-03T14:22:00.004+08:00

Ohh,I just realised why am I bored to death staying at home these days,

I expect people to plan outings when they expects me to
I am a coward,cause i dare not call the managers' numbers that are given to me
I procrastinate and worry alot
People reply my texts late (not looking at you Aff Westwick)
it's raining these days.

That's about all I could think of. I guess.
Meet my happy pills.

2009-11-30T17:21:00.002+08:00

I will not hesitate to go, if you really want me out.
Don't drop obvious hints.

2009-11-27T22:38:00.010+08:00

Meow ♥

You know,sometimes I wonder..what happens if i actually publish my password here.

^^ But, 'course not.Pfft,pffssh,psshxz.
I'm like a log these days..been rotting at home. Everyone's calling and texting me,wondering if I'm somewhere around town area. It just dawned on me, should I actually be there?
Hrrmmmmxzxz. This holiday has not been the littlest productive,by far.
Anyways,Sunday.Work. 8-2. -.-
How to wake up siolxz.
Plusplus,I've been sleeping at 6am in the morning,without being online at all...well,this just means
...........................
I think I like you

Nose like a tap.

2009-11-23T12:27:00.005+08:00

I just can't seem to dwell and walk on memory lane.I just want to look forward,to something that might or might not come in handy for my new chapter of life.
I have major trust issues.The old me might've been swept off her feet and behave the way everyone wants me to be,but I'm no longer that girl.The faith in me is just not as strong as before.
Maybe it's your conceited self assurance that appalled me,(hahaha)
....
..
...
.
but
.
...
..
...
is that really you?

2009-11-22T23:19:00.006+08:00

I feel random,
and Malek..some twentytwo year old dude,living in a three year old's mind introduced me this video,and i keep singing to it eversince! Gosh,why did my cousin had to pick some cross-dressing and lame boyfriend who attracts his own attention?

Kay,just a preview of him.
Here's the video.

2009-11-22T00:33:00.005+08:00

Sushiman.

Wonderfully lame Saturday. :)

2009-11-18T01:11:00.004+08:00

Yes everyone, now all the joke's on me now huh?

Specimen 1:
Liyana Kendrick. says:
EH WAIT
BARNEY GOT PURPLE THINGS ON HIS BODY RIGHT
Att Ismael says:
things? thats his skin bodoh.
hahahahahahaha
Liyana Kendrick. says:
OH
HAHAHAHAH
Att Ismael says:
HAHAHAHAAHAH

Specimen 2(i told a friend about specimen 1):
Kamil. says:
HHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAAHA
purple things?? XDDDD
HAHAHA
xD
Liyana Kendrick. says:
HAHAHA
I FEEL SO
SO
SOO
STUPID
Kamil. says:
HHAHAAAHAH
lol!!!!!!
don't forget the green2 thing on his body also:P
Liyana Kendrick. says:
SHUTUP
HAHA

I ♥ REDCAMP 6 - SPARTANS

2009-11-17T00:38:00.007+08:00

Need more moolahs~
I lost a chocolate bar while everyone is out dancing at the M party yet I'm still in my leafy patterned dress spooked out by the movie -Paranormal Activity -and I give an eleven thumbs up either cause it's real good or I'm just easily spooked and also currently I'm sad cause all the animals that I've been chatting with most of the night are not online cause either their internet connection suck balls or they are grinding some random guy/girl. Tell me again why did I back out on the last minute? hahaha To add on the sucky feeling,I feel so extremely used and naive cause i fell for two new-era pick up lines,or maybe they aren't technically pick up lines,which I doubt so, to get my number. HAHA.
Fug,I'm so pissed with myself,and I bet when bubbles reads this,she'll laugh in my face with that sheeebuy 5 cent face.

Gaaaaaaaah,I'm still on the phone with him,wth?I was about to blabber about a puppy,when he starts to interfere my blogging time.Sheeesh.Anyways,one of the new-era pick up lines to get my number is from this guy -who so speaks,that he's getting me a job.And if he isn't going to contact me back by this afternoon,I swear I'll delete all the male contacts in my phone again,just like how i did at one point of time.I feel so0o0o0o0o0o vulnerable.
HARHAR.
And I've to wake up at 6.30 later,yet I am online and on the phone with the dude who's friggin full of himself.

Ah geez,thanks to Clinton,Saiful can't get through to call me.Idk if it's a good thing or not,since his reason was simply to get rid of his boredom. Baaah,I got to stop this so0o0on.
And,prepare myself dor Redcamp. GO SPARTANS.
Belum apape da macam faham eh.

K uh,gotta meow~
Anyways,here are some of the pictures from escapade@SP,it was awesome I tell you~
Go INSPIRA~

Grad night

2009-11-14T12:29:00.004+08:00

You're such a fucking douchebag and I'm glad everything is all over from now. I won't have to see your nasty prickly little moronic of a face and your daft puny brain. Whoa,after so many years,I've finally come to realise..that..I just hate you,so much so,that it hurts. But here's one last for you,

Look inside,
Look inside your tiny mind
Now look a bit harder
Cause we're so uninspired,
so sick and tired of
all the hatred you harbor

So you say
It's not okay to be gay
Well I think you're just evil
You're just some racist
who can't tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval

Fuck you,
Fuck you very,very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Do you get,
Do you get a little kick out of being slow minded?
You want to be like your father
It's approval your after
Well that's not how you find it

Do you,
Do you really enjoy living a
life that's so hateful?
Cause there's a hole where
your soul should be
Your losing control of it
and it's really distasteful

You say
You think we need to go to war
well you're already in one
Cause it's people like you
who need to get slew
No one wants your opinion

Fuck you
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't translate
and it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

m.o.o.d.y

2009-11-12T13:41:00.000+08:00

I'm beginning to have cold feets for tomorrow's event.I know it might not be that of a big deal to anyone,but I've thought about attending a graduation night eversince the first day I entered secondary school life so yes,it is pretty much a significant thing to me.But one thing that annoy me the most is that my mom is not gonna be there next to me,adjusting my dress,make-up or the least,compliment me like..like I don't know.
I'm feeling very fucked up now I do not know why.My sleeping disorder is taking its toll on me and I'm fugging annoyed because as much as I tried to sleep and rest,I fucking can't.My mind will still be awake.And thanks to the insuffecient sleep,my migraine and flu is accompanying me through my misery.All I just need is a good sleep but when I try to relax and shut myself up,I can't.I'm too busy thinking.But I do not know what in the world I'm thinking about.
And note ;I never ever ever,and even if I do,they are rare,to have zits.And of all the time in the world,it had to come for a visit on my last day of the paper and tomorrow is grad night.Congratufuckinglations mother nature,once again,you've found another reason for me to hate you even more.
Friends and whoever,tell me to take some medications and sleep.Wahfugg,you think I didn't ry uh?This is why I'm still up and awake and ranting and really really pissed.Yet those idiotic people who doesn't have a care in the world making stupid questions of themselves,thinking that they're existence is the epidemic of my life story.Oh my God,I do not care about you at all.Why don't you get it fucking straight in your mind that I'm the one person who cares the least of you.

I'm ranting cause I'm pissed.Maybe I don't really mean it,but maybe I do.
I do not know.ON a slightly brighter note,I hope I'd get a job at wavehouse.Cousin,do your thang.
Bye,I gotta try and find another way to sleep.Fuck you annoying pimple.

2009-11-11T12:25:00.000+08:00

Everyone seems to be in and out of love.

OMG IT'S FUGGING WEDNESDAY AND IN VERY FEW HOURS TIME I CAN SAY FUGG YOU O FUGGIN LEVELS BECAUSE I'M THROUGH.AND TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO'RE OLDER THAN ME AND SAY TIME LAMBAT OR WHUTEV,HONESTLY,I DO NOT CARE, CAUSE I'M JUST FUGGIN THRILLED THAT THIS FUGGING ORDEAL IS OVER AND DONE WITH AND AND FUG,THE THOUGHT OF GRAD NIGHT DRAWING CLOSER MAKES ME FEEL EVEN MORE ANXIOUS,I DON'T KNOW IF I SHOULD BE AFRAID OR EXCITED FOR THIS FRIDAY BUT ALL I KNOW IS THAT I HAVE TO FUGGING BRACE FOR IT.AND AND AND,TOMORROW,ZOMG.I'VE TO GO OUT WITH IAENE AND NAF FOR SOME INTERVIEW THINGY BUT BUT BUT IT'S MY KITTY(PEARL)'S BIRTHDAY AND I ALREADY INVITED SEVERAL CATS FROM THE VOID DECK TO COME AND JOIN US FOR THE PARTY.YES I AM HAVING AN EXCLUSIVE ALL FELINES ONLY PARTY CAUSE MY MOM JUST LEFT FOR PENANG LIKE A FEW HOURS AGO AND IT ACTUALLY SUCKS KNOWING THAT I HAVE NOBODY TO DEPEND/COMPLAIN DURING MY PREPERATION TO GET READY THIS FRIDAY,SO THAT EXPLAINS MY REALLY GLOOMY FACE EACH TIME YOU MIGHT/MIGHT NOT CATCH ME IN THE STREETS. WHY AM I TYPING IN CAPS LOCK? CAUSE I KNOW IT'S HALF PAST TWELVE AND I'VE YET TO IRON MY UNIFORM. AHHH IRON UNIFORM! THIS SHALL BE THE LAST TIME I'M IRONING MY UNIFORM SO I'VE TO MAKE IT HELLA CRISP AND PRIM FOR AN HOUR MCQ PAPER.FTW RIGHT?

K,I got to go bathe now.

2009-11-09T22:18:00.000+08:00

People moving all the time,inside a perfect straight line.
Don't you want to curve away?

Maybe it's some anxiety,maybe it's the time of the month.My moodswings are downright terrible.The only light I see is baby niece, Amber.
Everything else seems so dark and sombre...even the thought of an end to O levels.Tsk, why am I hiding behind those deceiving emoter. Maybe it's true,maybe I should keep my friends close,but enemy closer.

2009-11-08T00:17:00.000+08:00

Shopping date with Iaene & Rafiq.
Awesome (Y)

Say meet at two,but meet at three.Say go bowling,but go play pool.Met hot japanese girls,then I got hooked too.Ate at Secret Recipe,Japanese Soba not nice.Nbcb.Contrary to the hot Jap girlsxz.Intention was to shop -Iaene&I for grad night -but ended up getting one pair of earrings.
TSK.AND AND AND,ZOMG,RIS LOW. WHOA. BOOMZ.
Anyways,yeah. Rafiq,cow,Iaene,ALIEN'S BF, you guys are AWESOME. Bowling ah next time kayxz. ♥

2009-11-06T18:25:00.000+08:00

do you actually believe in
LOVE
?

I don;t,cause I'm nt sure of zé meaning.

Gdbye

2009-11-04T22:33:00.000+08:00

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

2009-11-03T22:40:00.000+08:00

A few more days,and I shall break free.
Shall I? Shall I party all night?

Who is that friggin dude in plaids? Alahai.

A.R.T

2009-11-01T20:52:00.001+08:00

Old Changi Hospital,geng

2009-10-29T00:48:00.000+08:00

Something to finally update about,it's short though.

Okay,some idiot friend of mine is such an idiot who idiotically tricked me.That idiot has a chimpanzee as a name. :P (i'm idiotically joking) Idiot.

So the conversation went like this....

ѕуаFяїL снімзн аѕнFояD says:
hahah! maybeee
and maybe the beattles
wait are they dead or alive?
Liyana Kendrick. says:
haha lepaking with my cat in the room
ѕуаFяїL снімзн аѕнFояD says:
i think he hide where mas selamat use to hide when he broke out of prison
LOL
wth
Liyana Kendrick. says:
ah ye.
layan
ahha
ѕуаFяїL снімзн аѕнFояD says:
hahah
did you knw mas selamat is a spanish delicacy
he must be yummy
Liyana Kendrick. says:
hahah what dish in particular?
ѕуаFяїL снімзн аѕнFояD says:
sam tamales
his name spelled backwards
you see!
Liyana Kendrick. says:
............
KIWAK
ѕуаFяїL снімзн аѕнFояD says:
his mum must be spanish
Liyana Kendrick. says:
FUCKYOU
ѕуаFяїL снімзн аѕнFояD says:
hahah!
Liyana Kendrick. says:
I ACTUALLY TYPED MAS SELAMAT SPANISH DELICACY AT GOOGLE

check this out...(click to enlarge)

Asshole right he.KNS.

2009-10-23T17:26:00.001+08:00

Forgot to mention that I'm on hiatus. :)

What's new? Been having midnight till day study at Macs with Erykah these days and I think I'm getting sick of macs the moment exams are over.I'm only seeking refuge to my awesome vanilla latte cause anything besides that is just a form of distraction.
Ohyes,despite the "last lap/run"...I've yet to attend a date with a friend.Well thankfully it's a mug-for-a-day-in-exchange-of-your-other-friends kind of date.But beforehand,I'll just wish you all the best for A levels dude. Baaah,here I am screwed and tensed for O levels,there you are for A levels. -.-

Anyways,I got to go studdddddddy.Sometimes I wish everyone had to go through O levels,as in every year in their secondary school lives. 8-D
Hsw m yb ry ds sc I tnnc dnts gnwnk ry rht nl tb m rh htw ym sdnrf.M yrrs,hsw I vh ry tf t.Tb,dlhs I ylltc b yrrs?R sd sht dnff y?

2009-10-09T18:33:00.000+08:00

There's always two sides of a coin,don't you agree?
But when one decides to play pretend that the side facing the ground is non existent,it's just as helpless as trying to retaliate.
Tell everyone i'm the vile one,how can I change it right?

I've to really quit my reading habits, any suggestions to overcome this addiction?
It's distracting my revision. :/ If only I wasn't addicted to reading..if only I was smart..if only I had the ability to remember..if only I could implant a memory chip of gazillion bytes in my brain..if only they knew how hard I'm trying to pretend I'm not losing it. :/

2009-10-06T20:44:00.000+08:00

Senang peh ckp,kecoh-kecoh raya doh~

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